Long time, no post

I haven’t written on the blog for a while. I haven’t really had much to say.

My neuropathy is getting worse, and I’ve been feeling pretty low. I feel like my shoes are full of broken glass, there are daggers in my shins, and hot needles in my back…. and the feeling doesn’t go away.  Just the act of walking causes huge amounts of pain, I can’t drive my car or ride my motorcycle, hell…. I can’t even play video games because my reaction time and concentration are shot.

Yes, I’m taking my medications as prescribed, but they only mask the problem… and not very effectively. The real downside is that taking all the morphine and oxycodone is seriously affecting my work. It’s very, VERY hard to write code when your head is full of narcotics. I have a huge project that I’m responsible for, and I’m not going to make the completion date. Unfortunately, that’s 40% of my goals for this year, so that means no raise next year.

*sigh*

Sorry to dump all this crap onto the web (not that anyone out there really cares). I’m just very frustrated right now. There’s nothing that the doctors can do, I’m in constant and intense pain, and I’ve had more than my fill of it all.

2 thoughts on “Long time, no post”

  1. I feel for you brother, I do have one piece of “good?????” news from my experience: after suffering the pains you describe exactly as you describe them, my feet and legs eventually lost 95% or more of their feeling. Although ending a long and brilliant career as a Hog rider for pleasure and making walking(especially stairs)an adventure every time, it’s almost worth it to have that unbelievable pain gone at long last. I still take morphine and oxycontin plus a buncha other stuff for other pain, but as it matches the pain blow for blow, it doesn’t muddle my already confused cranial contents any further. The other downside was forced disability retirement, as I really loved my work. Also worth the worst pain being somewhat relieved. It still strikes occasionally and with little or no warning, but at least now I know it’s likely transient in nature.

  2. Hi, long lost voice from the past. Huron to be more specific. would like the opportunity to “catch up” if you have the urge.

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