I haven’t written on the blog for a while. I haven’t really had much to say.
My neuropathy is getting worse, and I’ve been feeling pretty low. I feel like my shoes are full of broken glass, there are daggers in my shins, and hot needles in my back…. and the feeling doesn’t go away. Just the act of walking causes huge amounts of pain, I can’t drive my car or ride my motorcycle, hell…. I can’t even play video games because my reaction time and concentration are shot.
Yes, I’m taking my medications as prescribed, but they only mask the problem… and not very effectively. The real downside is that taking all the morphine and oxycodone is seriously affecting my work. It’s very, VERY hard to write code when your head is full of narcotics. I have a huge project that I’m responsible for, and I’m not going to make the completion date. Unfortunately, that’s 40% of my goals for this year, so that means no raise next year.
Sorry to dump all this crap onto the web (not that anyone out there really cares). I’m just very frustrated right now. There’s nothing that the doctors can do, I’m in constant and intense pain, and I’ve had more than my fill of it all.